I Was Just Thinking Back

I was just thinking back, fondly
over the times we had together.

Remember when you dumped
the ashtray on my head

and then when I tried to leave
you stood behind my car

in the middle of the driveway?
Or when we would go to St. John

and I would swim out into Francis Bay
to spot sea turtles for you to come out and see?

Then there was the time
I came home from the bachelor party

and you were fully
prepared to kill me.

Or how I would neglect you
and make you watch

football for hours on end
and you’d never complain, or maybe just a little.

Or when I took you to Krystal’s
on New Year’s Eve on the millennium

instead of someplace nice.
And you would still call me noble and honorable?

And then you let me name the dog Maybelle and bought me

that beautiful June Carter CD
and Echo and the Bunnymen on vinyl for my birthday?

And I would spend hours
talking to and loving your
amazing grandparents.

The kind of situation we were in is called several things:

a relationship
tumultuous
chaotic
unhealthy
but, on the best days
fucking crazy love.

–October 29, 2015